MALCOLM MILLER REVIEW

 Jennifer Martelli

 

            About a year ago, I attended a screening of Unburying Malcolm Miller, a documentary by Kevin Carey and Mark Hillringhouse. The film chronicled the life and poetry of Malcolm Miller, a man who lived, wrote, and died in Salem, Massachusetts in 2014. The documentary featured interviews with estranged family members, professors from Salem State University, police officers, friends, old girlfriends. After the film, there was a Q & A period. Many audience members, who hadn’t seen Miller in over 30 years, were visibly upset at this portrayal of a man whom many saw as frightening at worst, odd at best. These people knew him as brilliant and funny. Other people in the audience knew him from his later years, and witnessed a different man, one whose trauma had progressed, whose emotional landscape may have eclipsed his poetic talents. In my own life, I had friends who felt deeply about Malcolm Miller. I had friends who avoided him. I had friends who found genius in his writing, like Rod Kessler, enough to collect and sift through his thousands of poems, organizing them into What I Am Always Waiting For: Selected Poems. I realized that experiencing Malcolm Miller was much like experiencing the elephant in that ancient Indian parable of the five blind men who each touch a different part of the great beast and come away with distinct impressions. Miller’s poems, at their best, are grounded in place and reflect his knowledge of form by defying it. They express a deep self-knowledge, which at times is tragic and at times, humorous.

Malcolm Miller, who was not only well-read but well-travelled, wrote his strongest poems about place. The Salem, Massachusetts that he trod is familiar to me, and I wondered if I had ever passed by him. Miller’s Salem is filled with ghosts. He writes in “Middle-Aged Poet,”

 

                        I pass them by in the heart of downtown

                        and they stare straight ahead and step lively

 

                        as though I am a rather sorry rascal

                        who will ask for money or say a terrible thing.

 

Although Miller sees other-worldly figures, he embraces the people in the city that he encounters. In “State College Canteen,” he elevates the man who fills the soda machines with beer, and observes

 

                        never did the philosophy professor

                        a master of logical positivisim

                        seem more absurd

 

                        //

 

                                                            and the English

                        instructors by afternoon were being

                        booed from the building

                        for not knowing how to teach

                        young people how to return

                        to the sun

 

Miller displays a deep understanding of the loneliness of the unsung late-night workers throughout Salem. In “The Sad Girl Who Sells Gasoline,” he describes the girl at the all-night station and asks us,

 

                        if you drive by wave at the sad girl

 

                        will you and smile as though yes

                        life is good it’s all right

                        and if you need to fill your tank stop

                        there and tell her the gasoline is marvelous

 

Miller sanctifies loneliness, a holiness borne from walking the city. At the “Dunkin Donuts On the Coast of Massachusetts,” the young girl who serves “all right” coffee during the graveyard shift is a “weary-eyed goddess//but a goddess none the less.” This poem, “A Clean Well-Lighted Place in Winter,” is insistent

 

                        in this god

                        blessedly open place

                        or don’t you know

                        don’t you know yet

                        about closed up towns

                        in cold dark times

 

            Miller creates this urgency by his lack of punctuation, his syntax, and his lineation. All of his poems avoid punctuation, and while many rely on syntactic line-breaks to guide the reader (with little or no enjambment), Malcolm surprises by breaking poetic rules. These poems thrust the reader into scenes, or off ledges, to the next line. I loved reading “Montreal Rue Victoria Near McGill,” just for the enjambment:

 

                        when we were just beginning to remember

                        you said to get a strong

                        board to put under the mattress

 

                        the room was a little

                        bigger than the bed

 

                        over the everyday table I composed so

                        so poems on

 

The ending of each line leaves the reader unsteady; we rely on the breaks to logically guide us, but there is a teetering. Is the speaker referring to the couple as “beginning to remember?” or are they just beginning, and he is asking her to remember what she said? Miller then breaks the modifier “so/so” in that penultimate line. The leap to the next is unexpected, and yet choreographed; Miller tells us that he is a mediocre poet. In “Baudelaire Lectures in Belgium to Raise Money,” not only does his lineation become bold, but his word-choices daring, as well,

 

                        almost nobody

                        empty rowed tombstone chains

                        in the voluminous hall his voice

                        a fly

                        trapped and bumping

 

                        a spider web

                        of silence fed

                        on his last hopes

                        last lost dreams

                        back to the city

                        of lights disheveled needing

                        a shave life

                        long dandy hatless now walking

                        blindly towards nowhere but hated

                        no one saw every

                        body was Baudelaire every

                        where was Belgium

 

 

There are also opportunities for Miller’s bittersweet humor. “What Happens to Promising Poets” offers sardonic wisdom, “what happens to them is what happens/to April and Christmas/presents and thousands of dollars.” Just as Miller moved around Salem, so do his poems move from voice to voice. The structure in “I Am Waiting” relies on repetition for emotional travel, as Miller takes the reader from “Yankees 2 Tigers 2,” to the “real results,”

 

            despair 12 joy 2

            propaganda 6 truth 1

            piggishness 15 piety 1

            suicides 3 resurrections 0

 

Miller gives us the sense that he is also making fun of his own narcissism; although the poems are not “meta” in the exact definition of the word, I felt that his observations were internal as well. Written as a vignette, the poem “The Man Who Was Wrong But Right” is a smart and funny moment of courtship and seduction:

 

                        he realized then she was not

                        pointing but trying to get a coat

                        sleeve more fully on

 

                        nor had she stared at him but merely sat

                        with a fixed gaze

                       

 

                        you have been wrong in everything thus

                        far she murmured

 

            Miller revels in the observations of place, poetry, and self. For all his inner loneliness, there is an awareness of himself in relation to his community. “I am getting up the courage,” he writes in “Before the Nunnery,” where “they will see me burst a door/and they’ll scream and call the cops.” What is this creature we’re encountering? What do we make of these poems written by “some genius or crack-/pot?” As I read the poems in Malcolm Miller’s What I Am Always Waiting For, I’d put the book down, and look out, experiencing a heart-aching yearning which seems to be the essence of so many of his poems. This is the work of a poet well-versed in his own dark streets, one who has always wanted to be

                       

even a murderer perhaps

                        cornered in the blood of song

                        the murderer of their usual merely acceptable

                        selves in behalf of their greatest unslavery hour

 


Jennifer Martelli is the author of My Tarantella (Bordighera Press), awarded an Honorable Mention from the Italian-American Studies Association, selected as a 2019 “Must Read” by the Massachusetts Center for the Book, and named as a finalist for the Housatonic Book Award. Her chapbook, After Bird, was the winner of the Grey Book Press open reading, 2016. Her work has appeared in Verse Daily, Iron Horse Review (winner, Photo Finish contest), Italian Americana, The Sycamore Review, and Poetry. Jennifer Martelli has twice received grants from the Massachusetts Cultural Council for her poetry. She is co-poetry editor for Mom Egg Review.